Purpose

“I like to imagine that the world is one big machine. You know, machines never have any extra parts. They have the exact number and type of parts they need. So I figure if the entire world is a big machine, I have to be here for some reason. And that means you have to be here for some reason, too.” ― Hugo, The Invention of Hugo Cabret

One of my favourite quotes.

My purpose in life . . . 

Well, I'm still searching.

Someone please send me a compass, I'm lost.

xoxo

[No Mood to Think of One]

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请问边度有的卖止哭剂??

我控制唔到。

Sigh ~

Tired of IP

I had my first final paper this morning and I’m glad that the paper was ok. But now, I’m very worried for my IP aka thesis. I feel really sad and stressed whenever I think about it.

And so, I went to wash my toilet this evening. Oh, if you didn’t know, I always wash toilet to relieve stress cuz I feel happy when I see a sparkling white toilet, it’s not like my toilet is filthy, it’s just that I love the sparkling shinny look of it when you turn on the lights and the smell of detergent after washing. It makes me feel fresh???! I don’t know, I just love it, or maybe it’s because white is my favourite colour. Meh..

Anyway, I send my work to my supervisor every week to let her check and she always tells me that my IP has no big problem, just some minor problems to fix. But for me, those are big!

And right now, there is a HUUGGEE problem waiting for me to solve in my IP. I feel like crying everytime I think of it. Super emo right now. T_______T and I think there’s a 50% chance that I might need to redo the whole thing and the best part is, I need to present my proposal on next Tuesday. Fml. Sho sho shoooo frustrated now.

Tonight, I’m gonna watch something funny to entertain myself and try to sleepy early cuz I've been burning the midnight oil for 2 weeks. I need to recharge myself tonight so I can fully focus and brainstorm myself to solve my IP problem tomorrow.
(I hope this is not an excuse for slacking tonight. LOL)

xoxo

Wake Up Call

Super Duper Mooooooodyyyyyy.

Those things you said to me were right and I actually realized them loooong time ago. I refused to admit cuz I was too scared to walk out of my comfort zone.

But now,
I will no let FyEoAuR ruin my life anymore.

F* Off!

wth am I crying ?

cuz I'm really upset and angry and disappointed with myself.

Btw, I don't see anything wrong with being an otaku who always fb, watchi drama and read blogs, since I can't go out often.

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Date: 25 March (Friday)
Time: 10:31pm

I'm Here to Destress

I got what I've been longing for, but somehow, I'm not happy.
I was happy but the feelings didn't last long.

I think it was an impulsive buy...
I dunno, I'm not sure.
*chapalang feelings*
I'm feeling kinda regret now, but I hope it's just temporary.
Maybe I need TIME to explore it.

Ahhh! I feel so stressed right now.
The clock is ticking, time is passing..
Finals is just a week away!
Tests and Assignments are on the way!
Internship has gone nowhere!

WTH!! WTH!!

Too many, too many important things to do.
TIME is what I need right now!

xoxo

Blame Myself for Being So Forgetful!

I’m furious!! Ah!! Why am I so forgetful! If I had my wallet with me, I should be meeting my friends now!
T__T

I shouldn’t put my wallet in JY’s bag! Ah! Stupid pants! Stupid me! T__T
I even had a reminder on my phone! “wallet inside JY’s bag” but I didn’t read it when I got out from the car and before that I even joked with JY that if I left my wallet in her bag, I couldn’t go yumcha with friends tonight! Not without my IC!! Sigh~

My dad refused to fetch me to PJ to get my wallet from JY cuz the traffic was really bad just now. However, he was willing to fetch me to the gathering. But I don’t wanna risk going out at night without my IC cuz sometimes there will be road block! And what if the police wanna check my IC!!

I had to ffk my friends again!
Guys, Please have another gathering!


xoxo


PS: Lessons learnt, keep your own wallet! ;)

Ugh!

I knew this was gonna happen!

What The Eff-Eww-See-Kay!

I Don't Wanna Wait Anymore

这么难咩？
sigh~
每次都这样。。。
五年了。。。
还是这样。。。
一个星期又过了。
你都说很迟了，你以为我想托咩！
我根不要托啦！
嗨哟！！！
我要快快学会驾车， 不要怕！
我可以的！..... 可以呱...
我可以的！！

xoxo

The Number 9

I got my Business Stats group assignment results.

9/20 only..

NINE marks ONLY!!

T.T

T.T

T.T

Very . Very disappointed.

xoxo

We Can't Always Get What We Want

I got 24.5/ 30 for my business statistics.
Disappointed..
I aim for at least 28/30 cuz I have learnt the similiar things in f6.
T.T
Gonna see the mistakes when I get the papers next week.

Oh ya..
I went to HELP uni coll today.. (again!)
Part of me feel like transferring there.. but
the other part dislike the environment...
Ahh~
WTH laa.


I go read book now.
xoxo

A Terrible Horrible Vegetable, Gastric Pain

I was hungry then I ate alot.
Hence, a terrible gastric pain attacked me in the afternoon.
I think this is the worst attacked so far.
From 2pm until now.
T.T

I couldn't bare the pain in my stomach,
so..
I cried in the toilet when I was bathing........
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FARK! FARK!

Is It Just Me Or Do You Feel It Too?

When we were young

We were so close

We were such happy kids

You were my first friend and best friend

Now we have grown

Somehow we've drifted apart

An invisible wall between us

I feel the gap

Those days are gone

Why can't we hang out anymore?

Why can't we do things like we used to do?

Gossiping in your room

McD every Sunday..

I miss those days...

Don't you miss it?

xoxo

Just Mumbling

Don't waste your time reading this post..


Stupid plaster ceiling
Stupid windows...

sigh

Blame that plaster ceiling 佬!!

AHHH!!
I want wooden curtain rod ...

emo yennn

Gimme a Few Thousand Dollar and I'll Fix Everything!

Don't ask my opinion.
Don't listen to it.

Don't blame me for everything,
it's just my opinion
and YOU made the decision!!!

emo yennn

Just Wanna Get The Hell Out of Here

Don't judge me if you have no idea what I'm going through right now,
and It's not about final exam!
because I don't even care anymore!
SCREW IT!

So just SHUT UP
and LEAVE. ME. ALONE!

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I hate people falsely accused me of shit.
I hate when people blame anything and everything but themselves!

emo yenn

Just Sell It!

I hate it
I hate it
I FREAKING HATE IT!!

you get me now?

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I did not, DID NOT study for my final..
great!



emo yennn

I've Never Had a Dream Come True

Gonna say Goodbye to this.. I suppose.
The chances are pretty high though,
around 70%.
sigh

Though that I can have my own room...
I wish to have it since I was 13.
Longing for it more than 5 years..
sigh

Forget about the decorations and stuffs.
No point wasting time and my brain juice.

What's wrong with 2008 laaa..
sigh

If I Could Turn Back Time

I wish I could...


Time Machine, I want one...
I wanna turn the back time... back to April.

Back in April, everything was going smooth and well.
Things got so messed up after that.

So many problems.
So many issues.
So much to worry.
So much dramas.


sigh...
I don't like it now...


I don't wanna see you like that,
I don't wanna see myself like that,
I don't wanna see them like that...




emo yennn

Anti-social

Don't feel like going out today
Don't feel like moving
Don't feel like talking to anyone..
I isolated myself ...
Damn bad mood!!

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I was so happy that I removed it few months ago,
but it came back again!
WHHHHYYYY!!!

I F*ing hate it!!!

WTH laaa!!

Why I keep getting things that I don't want??!
Why can't I get what I want??!
Why I keep losing valuable things??!

^$%^#@!!!

PS: This post has nothing to do with previous entry.
Previous entry was nothing, I was having mood swing yesterday..

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xoxo