Dinner?

You are hot
Then you are cold

I’m trying
Not to be cold

Are you into me
I really don’t know

If you still want to see me
Please let me know

Ask me out again
I won’t say no

Never again will I say no.

May 2014 be Better than 2013 !

Oh Hi blog! It's been a long time... like a reaaaaaally looong time!! I can't believe that the last time I blogged was in January! Oh mai, 11 months ago! wth! But no worries cuz I'm posting one now, I suddenly have the urge to update my blog, since the "ohm" is here, I shall not waste it! And it's gonna be a loooong post! Yay!

So hello, hello! Hello December *stare at calendar* can't believe that 2013 is coming to an end. Well, time flies really fast huh. Looking back at the past 11 months, I can say that I'm quite impressed and surprised at myself. *Ahem! Feeling proud* I quit my boring HR job in April and decided to join an event company in May. I hated my first permanent job so much that I felt so useless everyday when I go to work. I started serious job hunting in January and I've been applying for marketing and event jobs for months but failed to get one because most of them required related working experience. I was really devastated. Until one day, as usual I was browsing JS and I found this company, and the title was "ManagementTrainee" the minute I saw this title, I knew I had a chance for interview because:

1. "ManagementTrainee" doesn’t require experience

2. "ManagementTrainee" also means you do everything anything they asked aka cheap labour.

I don't mind doing pt2 as long as I get to learn and gain some experience, cuz I really wanna quit HR and join marketing/ events, hence I really need the related experience to change field and bring myself to the next level. As I read the JD further, something got my attention- all events from the company are in overseas, which means I get to travel for free! So yea, not bad right? And so, I applied. Few days later or one week I can't remember, I received a call from the secretary and it was an interview invite. When there is an interview invite, just go and collect information, observe the environment and the people, then decide. That's what I do.

So I went to the interview, to my dismay, the minute I opened the door I was disappointed. The office environment was really a turn off- it was old and dusty. I was being asked to sit at an empty cubicle to wait for my turn, and the place was really dusty, I could even doodle on the table with fingers! After waited 30 mins, I went in the room and saw the Managing Director, first thought was: Wahlao, a gweilo eh?! Then I got bit worried cuz I was afraid that he might not understand my bloken engrish. But the interview went fine and I got to meet my supervisor too. The MD told me that they would finalize the hiring today and will call me in the afternoon if i'm hired, and I was like Wait WHATTTT?!! TODAY in the afternoon?!!! I wasn't prepared at all, I went for the interview just to collect info and I really hate the environment. So I went home and told my parents about the interview and the office environment, but the JD is really interesting though, cuz it's a totally different field and it's challenging too cuz it required lotsa communications dealing with oversea hotels/ contractors/ clients. Majority, like 90% of our clients are foreigners. So yes, big challenges for an introvert like me eh!

I still remember, it was around 3pm+, I was taking a short nap at the living room and I heard my phone ringing in my room. My heart beating real fast and I was so afraid that I got hired. (Wah, so muka tebal) So I dragged myself to my room and saw a missed call from the MD and he actually left a voice mail for me. When I was just about to call him back, he called me instead. So my instinct was right! I got the job offer but I was so hesitant to take the offer, and the major reason was because the office environment. Big turn off.

So I told my parents about the offer and after a looonggggg dilemma, I finally decided to take the offer because life is short so let’s make the best of it, live it with no regret! *Fuiyooh* But if I really hate it, well just quit and get a new job. No harm trying right? So this, is how I got my current job and it’s actually not as bad as I thought! There are ups and downs of course, like 2 colleagues in my team left after my first month and when I was in my 2nd month, my supervisor left for KLCC after 3 years working in my current company, leaving me alone in the Exhibition team for 2 months until we found a replacement. Oh, if you're curious about the office environment. Well, it's much better now! One day I had lunch with the HR and he asked me what I think about the company, so I told him my honest opinion, office is dusty and my nose itches everyday since I started to work here. So one week after that, MD bought an air purifier (Yay!) and the part time cleaner comes few times a week instead of just once a week. (Double Yay!!) :) 

The fun thing about my current job is the travelling part. I have the chance to travel for free and also travel to places that I don’t think I would go. My first event was in Vietnam in July, then was Istanbul in September and followed by PE, South Africa in November. If my supervisor didn't leave this co, I don't think I would have the chance to travel. Kekeke. The workload sometimes is heavy and stressful though, as my boss aka the MD is demanding and impatient most of the time especially when he is moody and grumpy. But oh well, still a better job than my previous one. 

Quitting my old job and getting a new one is considered as one of my achievements in 2013. I hope I've made the right choice joining my current co, please continue to be awesome and wonderful in 2014! *Pray Hard*

Apart from getting a new job, nothing exciting happens. I’m still the same me, still shy in front of strangers but crazy when with friends. I guess if I’m still working at my previous co, my life would be dull and boring, because most of the funny/ stupid/ happening stories happened in my new job. Wah, I guess I really like my new job cuz most of the things I wrote here in this post are related to it. Maybe I’m still fresh and new, but I hope this feeling will last longer, at least two years laaa please.

Just a few more days, I will need to change my organizer and getting a new calendar. I’m gonna think of a new list of resolutions and I hope I can achieve all, if not half would be good too! (I didn’t even achieve half of my 2013 resolutions!) There is one thing I hope to get in 2014, please, please, please make it happen! I want an awesome, good looking and brainy boyfriend!

May 2014 be wonderful and awesome! Cheers for an awesome year, I look forward to another great year!

xoxo

Purpose

“I like to imagine that the world is one big machine. You know, machines never have any extra parts. They have the exact number and type of parts they need. So I figure if the entire world is a big machine, I have to be here for some reason. And that means you have to be here for some reason, too.” ― Hugo, The Invention of Hugo Cabret

One of my favourite quotes.

My purpose in life . . . 

Well, I'm still searching.

Someone please send me a compass, I'm lost.

xoxo

Cliché, But True

人生有多少个十年

That sounds cliché but it’s true.

Dad was having a father-daughter session with my younger sister after dinner, he taught her some life principles and shared some real life stories with her. I was listening in my room and some of the things he said have had me started wondering and thinking (again) about my future - what I want to do and accomplish.

I tend to think and worry a lot whenever I want to try out something new, the little voice inside me has always come out from nowhere giving me negative thoughts and somehow it always succeed to pull me back from trying out new things. It feels sucks.

I’m no longer a teenager, just a couple more years I will be 30. I need to follow my guts feelings and do things I want to do, because life is short so let’s make the best of it, live it to the fullest and live it with no regret! Another cliché, but I couldn't agree more! :)

xoxo

It's December!

Hello, I’m back from the long hiatus because I feel like updating my little space here. While I was bored at work this week, I randomly picked some of my old posts to read and I was smiling when reading them- some posts are silly. Hah! Then I suddenly had the urge to update my blog, just to jot down some thoughts that I have in my mind, so I can smile when I read it in the future. 

So here am I doing this, updating my blog after two months. Yes it’s been two months since my last update cuz I have too many drama series and movies that have kept me away from updating my blog. Hah! Beware, this is gonna be a looong post but pictures are included! Haha! So here comes the month of December. It is the month to review what we have done in the past eleven months, the month to spend $$$ because of the year end sales, and also the month to think of or set the 2013 New Year’s resolutions. Excited?! 

This year, a lot of “Firsts” happened. I started my first permanent job in April with a recruitment firm and received my first 4-figure paycheck in end of that month. I’m working with nice bosses and colleagues in a not-bad working environment at an expensive place while getting paid peanut every month. So yep, I just summarized my first job. Boring right?! Haha! So let’s talk about something Crazy now. I’ve done two crazy things or I should put it into another way- I have done two things that the sane me wouldn’t do. First, I took part in the 9th PerhentianIslandChallenge in October, and it was the most spontaneous and fastest decision I ever made (within 24 hrs!). I only did a little research about the challenge before we register in August, all I knew was that we will be staying in a tent for 3d2n and the challenge/ race will be in Perhentian Island. It was my first time joining a race/ marathon. My actual goal was to go find Francine and visit the island, so I didn’t prepare for this challenge at all. But as I did more research about this challenge after the registration, I found that this challenge is totally beyond my expectation. I started to worry and wonder why did I sign up for this?!!! ohgodwhy.jpg 

Since I have already bought my flight ticket so there is no turning back. Hence I flew to Kuala Terengganu on the 11th October together with PuiLing, MeiMei and her sister- LaiKuan. We played tourist in KT for a day, Francine and friends brought us around for makan- makan and sightseeing. Then we woke up very early in the next morning to leave KT for Perhentian for the challenge. Reached the campsite in the afternoon, set up our own tent then went to check out the public restroom. I was stunned when I saw the public restroom, I never thought it would be this bad! I thought the toilet at my late grandparents’ house was bad but this was worse! The toilet at my late grandparents’ house was made of cement floor with huge insects crawling on the wall, and cockroaches and frog would stare at you when you bathe, which was quite similar like the public restroom. This, I can tolerate because I’ve been through many-many-many times. The thing that I couldn’t tolerate was the water supply for the public restroom, the water supply was very little, as a result the water flow from the pipe was really slow. You gotta wait for the water to drop on you to wash yourselves and sometimes it would take a few minutes to reach you. And that’s why the toilets stink and that’s also reason why I drank only around 500ml water per day during my stay there. Hah! 

Since the first day in Perhentian was free & easy, so we did what girls do at the beach- taking pictures like nobody’s business and dipping ourselves in the sea under the hot sun. Hou song ahh!!! Then we received shocking news during the briefing session at night. We were told that this year, the trail for Novice Women category was freaking 21km long!! Holycrapwtf!!! I was shocked la! First, ahem, according to research I did, last year was only 14km long! Second, hello, this is my first marathon and it’s not 5km but freaking 21km!!! This is insane!! The moment I heard this news, I begun asking myself the same question again. Why am I here? Why did I sign up? Then I told myself I will just gonna walk since I never expect to complete the race anyway, I’m just here for the beach and friends. Hahaa! Keep Calm and Have Fun yo!! So everyone went to bed early that night to get ready for the race. The weather turned bad while we were all sleeping. At first it was drizzling outside then it was drizzling INSIDE our tent (!!!) because it was pouring outside. As a result, most of my clothes got wet, including the long pants which I was gonna wear for the race and guess what….. the center part of the pants was the only part that got wet! Argh!!! If I wore it, I would look like I peed on my pants! How am I supposed to wear it?!! Hence I got no choice but to wear shorts, which I’m truly regretted and which is what I’m gonna about talk next. 

We got up very early for the next day to prepare for the race, I barely slept because I was too frustrated over my wet clothes. Lol. Around 7am, all of us got transferred to another island where the race took place and the race started around 9:30am. Everyone started running, I too tried to follow their pace. Kiasu mah. Then slowly reached the jungle, then it was all about jungle trekking and hiking which was another thing that I didn’t expect at all!! I must be insane when I decided to join this. My legs got attacked by tons of mosquitoes (so sick and itchy!!) and the hill was very steep and freaking slippery due to the rain on the previous night. I was sooooo regret of wearing shorts entering the jungle. Sigh. Then I got dizzy and weak when climbing up because of lacking stamina. This is the consequences of staying indoor too much la!!! Sigh! I so wanted to give up but there was no turning back cuz if I decided to stop I had to walk all the way back to the starting point ALONE. So, I told myself die die also must to reach Checkpoint 3 to surrender alone even if my friends wanted to continue. So after all the climbing, sliding, falling, grabbing, tripping… I finally reached CP3 with Francine and we surrendered. This was the best decision I made! Hahah! I was knackered and physically worn out after all the tarzan stunts I did and all the mosquitoes attacked. Boy, I’ve never been this tired in my life before!!! 

Happy me is happy on the first day.

Me reaching CP3. I was really happy cuz I saw drinking water!! haha!! 
Btw, take a look at my pants!!

The aftermath.

Poor legs with 40 over bites and cuts, so horrible looking!! My family, especially my mom was shocked when they see my legs. I’m still sad to look at them, those scars are still on the healing process. Wish speedy recovery!!! So yes, that’s all about my first marathon/ race/ challenge experience.

Two weeks after the race, I did another crazy thing. Here goes another story. I heard BigBangAliveTour is coming to KL and I got really excited. At first I was hesitant to spend about RM200 for the ticket (too poor) then I thought why not, I’m 24 already and haven’t experienced a freestanding concert before (too poor for VIP and too cheapo for seating zone). So I changed my mind and decided to go to the concert with MunPing. The concert started at 8pm but we decided to go there early because we were being kiasu, wanted to get nice standing spot. So on that day, MunPing and I reached the stadium around 2:30pm and the queue was already damn long. Some of them were there since the night before!! We joined in the queue and stood for around 4 hours till the gate opened. Crazy I know. The weather was terrible too, it was sunny then rained then sunny then rained again. Concert started around 8:15pm, and luckily the rain stopped after a few minutes. Phew! And I continued to stand for another 2.5 hours until the concert ended at 10:30pm. After almost 8 hours of standing, we still gotta walk to the LRT station and guess what, we walked the wrong direction. Hahaha!! Silly us. It was another unforgettable day for me. I’ve never stood for so long in my life! There goes another first. Lol. I can’t believe that I have stood for almost 9 hours just for a concert! This is totally crazy because the sane me would never ever do that. The concert was really amazing!! It is also my very first freestanding concert, I sang, jumped and screamed like a fan girl under the rain on a muddy field. Haha! I got really excited over the crowd and their live performances, definitely the best concert I’ve been and will definitely go to their concert again if they ever come back but I will not go early to queue anymore. LOL!! Ahhh! I hope Coldplay will come to KL next year!! Here are some proofs of my attendance. Hahaha! 

Wrinkled ticket that I have no idea why I’m still keeping it.

MunPing and I and my yellow raincoat. Lol

Here’s another “first” story to share. I had my first foreveralone movie night a few days ago, the experience wasn’t as lonely as I expected, maybe because I’m used to watching movies and dramas alone in my room. I’m impatient when it comes to watching movie in the cinema. I prefer watching new release movies, if a movie has been released in cinema for one week, I wouldn’t feel like watching it anymore, even it’s a movie that I’ve been anticipating. Because I think it’s not new/ fresh anymore, so I would rather wait a few more months to DL it. Haha! (Am I the only one like that?) My little sis and I went for a movie together last Sunday, I suggested Life of Pi but she doesn’t like the movie because she thought it would be boring, so we ended up with Breaking Dawn. Waste of money. I really wanted to watch Life of Pi since the day I watched its trailer, so I asked my friends around, unfortunately most of them are only free next week. Hence, I decided to watch it myself on Wednesday. Foreveralone.jpeg The 3D is beautiful and the movie is really meaningful. Those who haven’t watched, faster go watch! 

My foreveralone movie ticket. Hahaha!!

So, Christmas is just around the corner, I’m still thinking what I should get for myself. I know, this is just another excuse to shop. Haha! How I wish Santa is real! 

"Dear Santa,

I wish to have a watch that I’ve been eyeing forever from Marc by Marc Jacobs, either Amy Strap 36MM (Navy) or Black Patent Blade 40MM. They are much more overpriced here than in the States and I’m unwilling to splurge on it. So I hope you hear my wish as I’ve been a good girl this year. Please and TQVM! =DD

 

 Good girl, H.Yen"

Let’s start doing New Year’s resolutions for 2013! Set your goals peeps! I’m gonna do it privately again, because I don’t wanna jinx it. haha! I think that’s all for today, imma stop writing and end this post by posting my vain selca. =P

My hair is so long already! Oh btw, I’ve removed my bottom braces on the 24th November. Braceface no more! 

Till then.

xoxo 

 

Oh, Hi!

It’s been one month since my last post. I wanted to write something here but what I have in my mind now are all negative thoughts. I don’t wanna leave so much angry and sad thoughts here. Well, let’s just say it’s about work and I feel very frustrated with myself as I have still no idea what my passion is. Gah!! Let’s just forget about it. Suck it up and move on laa! 

Listen to this happy song laaa!!  =)

This vid was released on my birthday yo! And I love the white Fiat500. 

Till then

xoxo

TwoMonths+

Hello! Hello! HELLO!!! How are you my blog?! I can’t believe that I’ve abandoned you for two months! The last time I updated was on April Fool’s Day and now it’s already end of June! July is coming! Which means my birthday is coming! *hint* Time flies huh!?

Almost three months have passed but nothing excited happened. Every day is pretty much like a routine to me. *yawns* Wake up between 6:45am to 7am, wash up and dress up, leave home between 7:30am- 7:45am, stuck in traffic jam and reach office between 8:20am- 8:35am, leave office between 5:30pm- 5:45pm, reach home 6:30pm- 6:45pm, bathe and dinner, go online, watch drama, sleep before 12am. These are exactly what I do on my weekdays. *yawns* Yes, my life is kinda boring. Haha! Note to self: find something to spice up my life! *desperately*

Working life is treating me quite ok despite the boring tasks I do everyday, the traffic jam I endure every morning and the expensive parking rate. Frankly speaking, I’m kinda bored with my job. I’ve been here for two months plus, and I’ve been feeling bored with my job after one month working with the company. Since then, I’ve been thinking whether this is what I want to do or should I quit and try something else. I know it’s not good to leave a company for such short period of time, but what can I do?! I can’t stay working in a place and doing things I dislike. I've been here for two months plus yet I’m not sure whether I’ve learned anything valuable here. I sorta know what my future’s like with this company, I foresee myself doing the same mundane tasks daily in the next two years. Hmmm… happy? Hell NO!!

Right now, I feel like wasting my time as well as the company’s. If I were to leave soon, I feel quite sorry to my boss and colleagues who are nice and friendly. But I have to be cruel, else I’m gonna stuck here wasting each other time. I’m not young anymore, I’m twenty4 this year for Buddha’s sake! I desperately need to know what my passion is. I don’t wanna waste my time doing things I don’t like anymore. I know it’s not easy to find an ideal job but I hope I can get a job that at least won’t make me feel shitty or boring. *fingers crossed*

Ok, that’s all about my working life. And now I wanna talk about my Taiwan trip! So, last month I took one week leave from work for my Taiwan trip!! The trip was fun, food was not bad, Taiwanese are friendly and Taiwan is no doubt a shopping paradise! We walked till we were limp, we ate till we gained weight and we shopped till we dropped! I will certainly visit the country again!! And these are the places that I’ve been during my 7 days trip in Taiwan.

26/5: 桃园机场 - 淡水渔人码头 - 淡水老街 - 士林夜市

27/5: 中正纪念堂 - 九份 - 五角船板 (台中分店) - 逢甲夜市

28/5: 九族文化村 - 日月潭 - 文武庙 - 六合夜市 - 美丽岛 捷运站 - 新崛江商圈

29/5: 佛光山 -飞牛牧场

30/5: 101大楼 - 五分铺

31/5: 圆山大饭店风景区 - 忠烈祠 - 士林官邸 - 西门町 - 宁夏夜市

1/6 : 桃园机场 – Home

This is yours truly with Taipei 101 behind me. Tee Hee!

I finally finished reading the the trilogy of Fifty Shades of Grey that the internet keeps talking about. I had to stop watching my K-drama for ten days to finish the trilogy. At first I felt kinda awkward reading the first book because it was my first time reading an erotic novel. Hahah! Then slowly I got used to it laa. Out of all three books, the third book is my favourite because it has less sexy scenes O.O, it’s more exciting (a lil bit of thriller), it reveals all Christian’s secret about his past life and the author also included Christian’s point of view as he recount first meeting Ana in the epilogue. Conclusion, the trilogy is not bad but it’s not to my liking though, I still prefer chic klit comedy or thriller, and I don’t think I will read erotic novels anymore, feel geli laa! Haha!

Well, that’s all for now. I pretty much sum up what happened in the past two months.

Until I update again.

xoxo

Smooth and Nice

Happy April Fool’s peeps! Did you get pranked today? Haha!

Time flies!! It’s April already and my holiday is ending in few hours time cuz I’m gonna start working tomorrow! My very first permanent job, earning my very first 4-figure paycheck monthly, and facing the new responsibilities of life after college… It’s going to be a new chapter of my life, though it may sounds cliché, but it’s true!

I’m gonna sleep early tonight to have a fresh start tomorrow!
I hope all my colleagues and superiors are nice and friendly!

顺顺利利 !!
大吉大利 !!
开工顺利 !!
Wish me luck !!

xoxo

Direction

Left or right

Safe or adventurous

No Idea!


Feeling crap
Still aimless
Still blur
Still worried
Still afraid


Hence, still standing at the same spot

It’s time to take a step FORWARD!



xoxo

Hi 2012 !

"Dear 2012,

Please be good to me!

Sincerely,
H.Yen"

Happy New Year peeps!!!!!!
Time flies, it's 2012 already!! And I’ve been hiatus for quite some time!! My internship ended on 30th Dec 2011! It was a mixed feeling of happiness and sadness. Happiness- remembering the happy moments from the past 4 months and also no more meeting arrangements (YAY!). Sadness- leaving nice and friendly colleagues, and the cozy working environment.

I’m gonna start my 1st post in 2012 talking about my internship first. I know laa, I should talk about my plan in 2012 instead of reminiscing about history and it’s about my internship summo. I don’t care la cuz I wanna jot down my wonderful internship experience here so next time I can come back n read about it. Ohohoh!

My internship was indeed an awesome one. I never thought I could pass the interview and interned there. Haha! My job scope is not bad la, if it doesn’t include “meeting scheduling” then it would be awesome!! Ahah! In fact, my job scope actually doesn't include "meeting scheduling" at all! Because everyone hates this job because it's quite challenging and quite time consuming and everyone was busy hence, I was asked to do it. I faced lotsa challenges but learned a lot when scheduling big meetings. One example, two weeks before my supervisor went for annual leave, I successfully schedule a huge meeting (a 7-hour-meeting with 16 participants) in one day. This was really a miracle to me and I was really proud of myself, maybe this is just a peanut for you, but for me, it was really an achievement!! Hahaa! However, miracle doesn’t last long, just a few days after my supervisor went on her annual leave, one of the participants’ secretary (Mel) threw a big bomb at me, she called me and told me that her boss is unable to attend cuz he is going Singapore for a meeting. And I was quite emo cuz of three reasons, One: my supervisor’s boss told me that this meeting has to be rescheduled!! Two: my supervisor was not here to support me, I had to seek advice from her boss *gulp*. Three: this happened on my last week of internship, hence, totally ruined my plan to slack enjoy my last week in the company!!

Hence on the last week of my internship, I had no choice but had to start calling and emailing all the secretaries again to get their bosses’ availability in January and early Feb. But little did I know, most secretaries went on their annual leave too! I was really frustrated as I couldn’t get all their available time cuz I didn’t wanna fail my "Last assignment"! And Mel’s boss is the busiest participant of all, he is only available a few days in Jan.

I called the secretaries almost everyday because their bosses’ availability change everyday as people from other business units also ask for their availability too. Some of the secretaries even were mad at me, I can know by hearing their tone when speaking to me. Haha! But Mel was really nice and patient with me!!

So on Thursday, the day before my internship ends, I successfully scheduled the meeting on end of January!! Wheee!! “Last assignment” completed!! It’s not my problem anymore if they declined!! Ahahah!! Most of them already responded, they have accepted my invites on Friday! As for those who still haven’t responded, hopefully they will accept as well la, so my supervisor doesn’t have to reschedule. Haha!

On Friday, the last day of my internship, I emailed Mel, thanked her for her time and all. She called me and we chatted awhile, we didn’t meet each other before but she is really a nice lady lor. *touched* I also made something for my team as a token of appreciation. I thought I would be very lonely on my last day there, cuz half of my team went on annual leave, including my supervisor. T___T But luckily I didn’t feel so, we had a fun photo taking session and one of the managers from other team threw me and my friend a farewell lunch at BubbaGump, just three of us. =)

Some pictures I took:

Something I made for my team

Farewell lunch

Yours truly
Yes, I know my table is messy.
Yes, I have a big cubicle. haha!

My team members!
Missing 5 of them.

I’m not sure about how is it like working at other Sunway companies like SunwayConstruction, SunwayMarketing and others but I really had fun working in SunwayGroupHumanResource. People are really friendly and nice, it’s really a nice place to work, many celebrations and lunches! Ahhaha! I enjoyed doing my internship there! Yay!! And that’s the end of my internship story. Haha!

So what’s my plan now? Although I worked as a cheap labour for four months, but at least I earned! Now that my internship ended, I’m now officially an unemployed, earning nothing, a parasite at home. Lol! Well, I have a plan actually. I don’t know this consider as a plan or not. Hahaha! My plan is to rest, enjoy, sending out resume and also do CNY preparation this month. Yup, that’s all. So does it sound like a plan to you? Hahaha! Hopefully I don’t have to be a parasite at home for so long la, I hope people will hire me laa. Be Optimistic, yo!! =DD

And if you are wondering whether I have any new year resolutions for 2012, well, I’ve stopped doing it since last year, cuz it never happened on previous years. Even if I have it this year, I won’t tell you nor write it here cuz I don’t wanna jinx it. Bwahahaha!!

Btw, how did you celebrate New Year this year? I was with my family and relatives at Bangsar. As usual, we had dinner together then balik rumah and 5 minutes before the clock strikes 12, all of them went outside the house and wait for fireworks show. Haha! I’ve never tried celebrating New Year’s Eve with friends. Maybe I should try it next year?!! Ohoho!!

Happy 2012 y’all!!

xoxo

I Should Go Work on My Thesis Now

I didn’t touch my thesis since yesterday. Once I got up in the morning, I switched on my laptop and spent most of my time in my room cuz I was too busy reading updates and watching videos from the internet.

It was really touching to see there were also gatherings in other countries and people were helping each other during the walk. Freaking gam dong okay, I even had a sudden urge to join them. T_____T And it was reaaaally saddening and angry when I watched weaponless people being attacked. T______T

Sigh, why are people not allowed to express themselves?
To those who went, my hats off to you. You have my respect.


xoxo

Is It JustMe ?

I really, really miss those days . . .

Damntheinvinciblewallthatexistsbetweenus. Is it just me, or does it really exist?

xoxo

Piece of Rant

Dear Miss Supervisor,

Congratulations! You did it once again!! You let me waited like a moron outside the office for one hour!!! You made me wasted one freaking hour!!! *Claps*

I thought we were supposed to meet at 2pm, but the receptionists told me that you were not in. So yea, I decided to wait for you, hoping that you would be back soon. I was being patience this time, at least I tried to. I was furious when I was told that you were not around, but I tried to calm myself down cuz my friend waited for her supervisor for hours too. I thought I could do that as well, so I waited one hour for you and I even asked the reception few times but they just gave me the same damn answer!! Oh, could you please change the receptionists?? They are rude, ignorant and lazy!!! Argh, Hate them so much!!!

Anyway, Miss supervisor, do you know why am I so pissed? It’s not because I waited you for so long, it’s because you always FAIL to keep your promise. I waited one hour for you but you didn’t appear!!! You didn’t even bother to ask the receptionists pass me a message. I’m not sure whether you really went out for lunch cuz you mentioned on your email that your lunch hour is until 1.30pm. Maybe you were sitting in the office and decided not to see anyone. I don't care what you did, If you’re not free or don’t wanna meet me, could you PLEASE send me an email a day before or ask the receptionists to tell me NOT to wait for you? Or wait, do you ALWAYS forget your appointment?? Arghh! Whatever is it, just inform me can?!!

I know you’re very busy, busier than Bill Gates the billionaire, until you don’t have time to inform me. I know your time is precious, can’t even spend 5 minutes to send me an email. But hey what about my time?? Your time can’t be wasted but mine can? Is letting-people-wait-for-you a hobby of yours? I don’t understand, why must lecturers ALWAYS let their students wait. I think they feel proud when they have tons of students waiting to see them. Symbol of Status? Popularity? Bullshits!!!!

Sigh, I’m really disappointed cuz this is not the first time you did this to me. I was really furious until I feel like crying after the one hour of waiting. I hope I have the guts to show you this. But unfortunately, I choose to be a coward this time cuz I don’t wanna fail my FYP. Congratulations once again for wasting my time. Yay, you did it again!

uoy.etah.i

*

Ahhhh, I feel so much better!!
I think you just wasted few minutes reading this piece of shit. =P
One question,
Do you think I should wait for her next time if she still behave like this?
and was I stupid to wait so long?
Okay, so there are two questions here.

What do you think?

xoxo

Please Knock Again

It’s been almost one month since I last blogged!! Hmmm, I’ve been quite gloomy lately, all stressed up with my FYP and finals until I don’t feel like doing anything and choose to lay my head in front of the laptop on my study table, as if like I’m experiencing some sort of serious depression. Hahaha!

I’m worried that I can’t complete my FYP on time, I’m worried that I don’t have enough time to prepare for my finals and, I’m worried that no company wanna hire me after I graduated, cuz my CGPA dropped drastically last year. I’ll be having my internship in Sept and I wish to have it in a MNC, I wouldn’t mind to travel far and stuck in a traffic jam for hours if I had the chance to work in a MNC cuz I’m curious as I’ve never been to one before. However, I found out that some of top companies required a minimum CGPA of 3.0 for internship. *Thunder* Based on my current CGPA, I think the chance of me having my internship there is just..... meh... not high.

You see, I’m not from a top or “branded” university so, -15%

But it’s okay that I’m not from a top university if I had good results.
Unfortunately my results are not good to compete with others. Hence -20%

Oh it’s ok if I have poor results as long as I have working experience right? Sadly, I have no working experience. -20%

And I’m not smart -20%

I’m not confident, I’ve no idea how to market myself during interview -20%

I have poor command of Engrish -20%

I’m not pretty -20%
Here’s an ugly truth, studies show attractive students get more attention, good-looking patients get more personalized care from their docs, and handsome criminals receive lighter sentences and beautiful people earn 12% more than Ugly Bettys! I should have studied harder since I don’t have good looks to rely on. ㅠ___ㅠ

I have an unattractive/ ugly resume -25%
First impression already PHAILED.

So the chance of me getting into a MNC is….. TADA!! -160%.
NEGATIVE 160 !! Zero !! ㅠ___ㅠ

They say “opportunity knocks but once” and “opportunity is also one of the things in life that once gone and never come back”. I sort of agree to this but not entirely. So, I was given a chance by my lecturer to “beautify” my resume last year to join the

PolyUGlobalInnovation&EntrepreneurshipChallengeInHK.

My group mate participated, but I didn’t *sobbbsss* and I’m glad that their proposal made it into top 30, defeated 10 countries and 48 proposals. And they are flying all the way to HK in June to compete with the other 14 countries! And besides this PolyUChallange, they also join other competitions using the same proposal. Throughout this whole participation thing, they learned and gained a lot, which make this become one of the worst decisions I’ve ever made besides quitting ballet and organ. You know, even though if they lost in the competition (choi!choi! I sincerely hope they will win!!) but those things they learned, those people they met, things they experienced, are priceless. Sigh~

I’m agree to this “when you believe that opportunity knocks but once, you make decisions based on fear”. I didn’t join that competition as I was afraid that I don’t have enough time to manage my studies, and also someone I don’t like, agreed to join but that person left half way though. This stupid FEAR I have, always haunt me when I need to decide. Arghhh!

There’s no use crying over spilt milk liao. Opportunity comes and goes, when it knocks over again, F*ck the fear! Grab it before it’s too late! Well, if it doesn’t knock, build a door!!

xoxo

Wake Up Call

Super Duper Mooooooodyyyyyy.

Those things you said to me were right and I actually realized them loooong time ago. I refused to admit cuz I was too scared to walk out of my comfort zone.

But now,
I will no let FyEoAuR ruin my life anymore.

F* Off!

wth am I crying ?

cuz I'm really upset and angry and disappointed with myself.

Btw, I don't see anything wrong with being an otaku who always fb, watchi drama and read blogs, since I can't go out often.

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Date: 25 March (Friday)
Time: 10:31pm

Oh My Mind !

My FYP outline deadline is on next Monday yet I still haven’t started to think of the topic for my FYP. It has been 3 weeks since I was asked to think about the topic but until now I’m still not sure whether to write about HR or Business Management, still undecided yet. Reason? Hah! It’s because I get distracted VERY easily. =____=

As you know, CNY is coming soon, just 2 weeks away! I have so many things to do! Spring cleaning, paintings, deco and clean my room and the most important… Shopping!!! I still have things to buy laaa, I’m worried I have no nice clothes to wear during CNY. (apa laaa, I really wanna slap myself when I have such thoughts!!)

So, these are the reasons why I can’t concentrate on my FYP. Sigh~ Whenever I tried to Google scholar for FYP topics, my mind will get distracted by CNY preparations, especially shopping. *Slap Slap!* Just like the other day, when I was playing Bejeweled on Mukabuku (I got addicted again, after quitting it for a year. This is really baddd!) I had losta random thoughts suddenly, then I got emo and I had no mood for Bejeweled and FYP. Yooor, why do I get distracted so easy one??!!!

In order to “cure” my shopping crave temporary, I logged into my Polyvore account this afternoon (after 3 yearsss) and created a set of things based on my shopping list.

Unlimited wants but Limited resources
High and low cut canvas shoes!!
Cardis and sweaters!!
Pretty flats and black heels!!
Ohh and those hatsss!!

These are all my wants!! Things I wanna buy!!
Except the ConverseCommeDesGarconsPlayHeartChuck!! Love love love the PlayHeart logo, it’s soooo cute!! Buuut, I can’t even afford a pair of classic Chuck! How can I afford this! It’s 3 times more expensive than classic Chuck! T___T I need a pair of canvas shoes but I’ve decided not to spend on a pair of Chuck cuz it’s just a pair of canvas shoes. Unless I have extra $$$ to spend la. Heh heh!

I wanna go shopping!!!
Yannie, I miss shopping and SG. LOL!
Klaaa, I go Google scholar now.

xoxo

Feeling Blue

Everything I do is wrong.
I tried to fix thing, do it right.
But then, I'm wrong again...
I can't satisfy you.

I'm always the wrong one.
I'm always the bad one.
I'm always the 差 one.
I'm always the one who let you down.

sigh~
Maybe you're right...


I dunno what's wrong with me.
I guess I'm just feeling down...

xoxo

Screw It !

Current mood: Extreamly moooooodeeeeeeee !! :’(

I slept at 3am on Saturday cuz I was rushing for BMS assignment with Tiff. We girls are all Excel noob, and the guys in our group are just useless and one of them is really a jerk. But anyway, Tiff and I managed to solve all the questions! YAY! Girls rock yo! Who said we need guys’ help!?

I woke up at 9am on Sunday (soooo eearly!!!) to attend BRM group assignment in college at 10am. I heard my alarm rang for few times but I ignored it as I was really tired. This is the first time that I ever go to my Uni on Sunday! Hello, it’s Sunday!! Is the day I rest and sleep at home!! Uni is sooo quiet and empty and the library is extreamely cold! Luckily I wore long pants today! Phew!

The library opens until 1pm! Yes, 1pm!!! wth!! So, all of us went to a café nearby to continue our discussion. I’m so blur on this assignment. I kept asking them questions, why this, why that. So paiseh you know, I asked them almost every single thing and yet I’m still blur! I don’t know how am I gonna answer lecturer’s questions on this coming Thursday presentation cuz I don’t even understand the whole thing. Totally screwed up!! As they discussed the assignment in more detail, I feel more frustrated cuz I just couldn’t understand. Sigh~

I left in the evening and had dinner with my relatives. Found out something in car when still on the way to my aunt’s house.It hurts my feelings and I feel disappointed with you. And it got worse when I got home and know the whole story.

I know it’s my fault but you shouldn’t tell them and discuss with them. You can’t just tell them EVERYTHING about me! Do you know that, THAT thing is the last thing I want people to know?! They always think their superior yet you told them THAT? And you let them judge me based on your story??! They don’t even have the rights to judge me!!! I feeeeel so hurt of what they have said about me. I'm so disappointed in you. Sigh. You exaggerate everything, you make things become worse! Have you ever considered my feelings? How am I gonna face them next time?

No more crying. Forget what happened today and tomorrow is gonna be a GOOD day!!!!!!! A great one, no doubt!!

xoxo

PS: Gimme 3 months, and I will prove you WRONG!!

Yay ! I Update My Blog !

I've been quite moody lately. I think I have mood swing. I’m happy now but I can be moody next minute. It sucks. I think it’s caused by stress. I feel like I have a lot of things to complete, but I don’t have the mood to start. Apa laaa.

Few days ago, there was a flea market in coll organized by the Management Student Association. The event was quite a success as it was pretty happening and it reminds me of Interact Club and Girl Guide events back in high school. I really miss those days lor . . . . . I was considered an active high school student cuz the Interact Club and Girl Guide organized sooo many banyak events. I enjoyed the most is the preparations not the event day. We used to stay back in school few days before the event to paint the backdrop and decorate the hall. And few days ago, I emo when I looked at the pictures taken during Interact Installation 05. apa laaa.

College life is sooooo dull, so not happening. I had so much fun back in high school! (Although there are few teachers I don’t like but no doubt that the clubs activities were fun!) I complaint to P.Ling and she encourage me to join some society in coll cuz she regretted not joining any. And both of us also think that we should have taken more pictures during high school cuz my TP folder only consists few albums inside. HAHA! So if you’re a high school students (I doubt that it there are high school kids read my blog) please take more pictures! Or you will be regretted like me!

Miss those days . . .

" 与其怀念过去，不如把握现在. =)"
Quoted from S.Yee’s FB.
She’s right! Lets look forward!!
I will consider joining some societies in coll to spice up my coll life!
Ohohho.. will see how things go ~

I emo not just because of this actually, other factors. Ask me if you wanna know. But sorry, I won’t tell. Lalala . . . .
I think I should stop wasting my time and start to complete my assignments and study for next week midterm!

Until next time
xoxo